a little more about my recent "sense of sadness" (i'm calling it that cause i don't know what else to call it)...

1.) it has nothing to do with unhappiness.... some have asked me about it assuming that this sadness has something to do with being unhappy. nothing could be further from the truth. i am actually quite "happy". i'm saved, i've got a great wife, great kids, an amazing grandchild, and a community of faith that is better than anything else i have experienced in community life.

2.) i am quite certain that this sadness is a direct result of my lenten practice and that it is a good thing. how can sadness be a good thing, you ask? i'm not sure yet. i'll let you know when i (if i) figure that out.

3.) i think this sadness is in some way connected to the beattitude "poor in spirit". the beattitudes were a major player in what i practiced for lent and maybe god is working to bring about the depth of what they mean in a very tangible fashion. maybe sadness is the wrong word.

4.) i have decided to continue my lenten practice. maybe this will somehow minimize the lenten experience itself, but i can't help but have the feeling that the practice is good and that god is working through it to transform my heart and understanding. god knows i need it. i am realizing that more and more also.

found some interesting reading over the weekend....check this out if you're interested in some provoking theological conversation..... church and pomo. there are quite a few past posts that are pretty intriguing.