OK, I am officially feeling a little overwhelmed. If you read my post from the other day, you know that we have officially jumped off the cliff and into the deep water. Lori and I are now actively seeking support for the purpose of continuing our lives of ministry in Honduras. I had at one time said that I would never (and I meant never) do what I am now attempting to do. Go out and RAISE money. I have said that if God wanted us in Honduras, then the oppportunity to do so would become obvious and provided without us having to go find it. I was told by folks that I needed to "take the leap of faith" and be amazed at how God would provide. I would answer, I have faith, but I'm not going to be stupid! I believed it would be stupid to jeopardize the peace and security of life that we have come to enjoy. Surely if God wants us in Honduras, He would make it clear and show us the way.

Maybe. He could certainly be crystal clear and make our way easy if He wanted to. God can do whatever He wants (DUH!). Maybe that's not transforming though. Maybe I am lacking faith Maybe I am too prideful. I have always seen fund raising as a form of salesmanship. Sell what you are raising funds for well enough and you will get the funds you need. I have raised well over a half a million dollars for the work in Honduras, but it has always been for the work and not for me. I am uncomfortable selling me! That is what I sometimes think I'm doing by asking people to support Lori and I. It is what I thought I would never do. But here I am, trying to work this out. I attempted to be a salesman before (real estate, insurance, TSA's) and had some success, but I didn't like it. Talking people out of their money has never sat well with me.

I'm trying to remember, this is not for me, it's not for us. It's for the people of Honduras. Almost two thirds of them live in absolute poverty. The per capita income is right at $1000 a year. Jesus said that the poor would always be with us. He didn't say to do nothing about it. He said just the opposite,

Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'
"Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?'
"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.' MATTHEW 25:34-40

God, tear down my pride and increase my faith for there is much to do.