Hello....anyone out there? Three months between posts and my goal of this being a place just for me to download has been accomplished!

These past few months have really been a challenging time for me.

Here is what I know .....

• God can use me wherever I am. Whether I am here in Birmingham or in Honduras. Whether I am serving at the Firehouse Shelter or sitting in the office on Lorna Rd. Whether I am teaching Bible class or having lunch with a friend.
• I am incompetent. It doesn't seem to matter what I do or how I do it, I continue to fall short of even my own expectations. I continue to make mistakes, I continue to make selfish decisions, and I continue to do that which I don't want to do.
• God has me safe in His hands. I believe that and have faith in that.
  

Here is what I dont know .....

• Am I where God wants me doing the things He wants me to do? Should I continue to do what I am doing or figure out a way to be in Honduras full time?
  
• How to overcome my incompetence! How do I do what I'm doing better, stop making the same selfish decisions and mistakes and stop doing that which I don't want to do?
• How to live more consistently with my faith an belief!

Do you see the challenge? Here's the weirdest part. If I had someone come and share this challenge with me, I would feel very confident that I would know what to say to help them work through it.

Continue to serve wherever you find yourself. Acknowledge your incompetence and trust God to provide what is needed to overcome your failings and continue to struggle with living consistently with your faith. Never give up the struggle!

So why is it that I feel so unsettled? Why is it that I can't seem to embrace my own wisdom and understanding? I continue to walk a fine line of being confident in what I'm doing one day and totally unsure the next.

Please pray that God will bring some clarity and peace. Any words of wisdom would be greatly appreciated.